Photos of Peter Wittendorp

Finally I'm putting a face to his name after writing about our story for 1 year. Some people or maybe most people will think I'm revenging against him as I'm sharing with the whole world our messages exchanged and now his face! So am I? NO I'm not taking  revenge. If I want to revenge I would done it 1 year ago and not waited until now.

I'm doing this as a closure for myself. I have always write about all aspects of my life publicly and I had started writing about Peter Wittendorp as far back as 10 years ago when we first met. Back then it was a different blog address. I stopped for 2 years because he asked me not to share and write about us on my blog. At that time I listened to him because I didn't want to upset him and respect our relationship. And I believed him when he said that our memories should be just for the 2 of us to cherish. I never thought he was scared of being found out that we had an affair. Yes we had an affair for 2 years even though we weren't having sex regularly! We messaged daily and talked almost everyday too!

Anyway, long story short I have decided to do what I have always been doing for the past 10 years when I started blogging.....that is to write down my life story, both good and bad.  
He taught me a valuable lesson that changed certain aspects of me hence I needed to record it down to remind me not to repeat the same mistake again with a man. A small part of me is forever scared by his accusation and lying. He played with my heart and feelings. He doesn't deserves me protecting his image anymore. My trigger point was the accusation. I would admit if I had done it, but I didn't. And to accuse me of that I just can't accept it even until now.

All I ever want from him was a sincere apology and I would had been able to have closure and move on quickly. Anyway.....I don't want to start ranting about him again. I just want to move on and forget him using my own way. And I don't care about what he thinks and feels with my actions.

p.s. I had more photos of him if I didn't delete it after we had our big fights the past few times. He had a selfie of himself that he took in his office for me, his hunting trip in 2015 and a few more that I couldn't remember anymore.

Friend Zone with Chris

Yesterday afternoon I dropped Chris a message to tell him that I just want us to be friend and nothing more. I also told him I don't enjoy flirting with him anymore hence this part is out of the picture. I gave him the choice to choose if he still wants to be friend with me or not. And I just heard back from him and he said yes.

He thought I didn't want to flirt with him was because he couldn't keep up the flirting/lovership. I told him nothing to do with him. It is me. What I want now is to focus on my business and myself. I'm not in the mood to play the lovership game especially when I don't feel an attraction toward Chris anymore. I get more adrenalin rush chasing my dream and business goals. 

Relationship and men are taking a very back seat at this moment. I need to focus all my energy, time, effort and attention to achieve another success story in the real estate industry. This is my final round returning to the corporate world and the real estate industry so I don't want to be distracted by someone like Chris whom I'm only interested to have as a friend. 

He said he is ok with he friend zone. I asked him does he thinks I care if he is ok with the friend zone or not??? Haha.....

Anyway, I know clearly what I want from a man now. If the man falls short, I will reevaluate and reconsider. I won't and don't put up with crap and I will not bite my tongue and hide my feelings. I will speak my mind and be direct. Chris said he prefers and likes my directness. Again, I don't care he likes/prefers or not. This is who I'm. 

Oh well.....glad that Chris is in the friend zone now. 

Random cheeky and naughty SMSes with Peter

With my posting of all these past SMSes between me and him I just put the final nail to the coffin. With 1000% certainty Peter's chapter in my life is sealed and closed in this lifetime and maybe next lifetime too. He should thank me for turning into the devil he accused me to be. I just made his accusation a reality. Now he can feel good about himself.  Whatever!

I can explain why I'm doing this, but I'm not going to. I will only say is not revenge. What people want to think and say about my action, I really don't give a damn! 2017 is a year full of changes for me. I will be even more adamant to do things that I want to do and not what people want me to do or what society dictates. 

SMSes during the loving times with Peter Wittendorp

Some SMSes from 2 years ago when we were still great and loved each other. 31st March 2015 was our meet up in HK. We flew in separately, he from SG and me from KL and we met up in the airport as our arrival time was about 20mins apart from each other.

We stayed in Pottinger Hotel in Central. I'm not going to write a long post (maybe I will separately in another post). Instead I will let the SMSes tell our story, from the good and loving times to the fallout and accusation. If I didn't listen to him and delete most of the SMSes, Whatsapp and emails, there would be more to post. If not there would be thousands of it.

Finally I feel great for being able to come out and share the truth and back up what I had wrote about him in the pasts. This is how I closed the chapter of him in my life. I know is not how people would close the chapter, but everyone is different.

P.S. Chat sequence is random as I screenshots it at different timing.

SMSes With Peter Wittendorp on Stalking/Harassment

Closing the chapter means posting all the past SMSes up and delete it from my phone forever. Was a stressful 1.5 months during which I had to endure internet harassment and his instructions on what I should do and said. His requested me to lie and to deny our lovership and etc. The SMSes spoke for itself what I had written in the past. I don't want to keep repeating myself.