My Current State of Mind & Feeling

I was swarmed with work and re-building my life after the crushing heartbreak. Finally, I'm happy to share that I'm doing well in both departments 😁😁! Business opportunities are growing at a steady pace although all the big deals I'm working on currently are still work in progress, but at least I have a chance to close those deals. In fact, I have a pretty good and positive feeling that I might be able to pull off a few big deals in the next 6 months. I'm feeling euphoric that my hard work is slowly paying off. I have created a blue ocean for myself and company. Nothing beats the intense feeling of satisfaction that I get every time I looked back at how far I had come. It isn't pay day yet, but the signs are very positive that I will hit jackpot in the next 6 months to 1 year. I just need to stay focus, motivated and continue to think creatively to develop more new clients and learn new things.

Not only I can feel the changes in me, I can see it clearly as well. Are they good changes or bad? Hmmmm......I guess it depends on each individual acceptance level. Personally, I think those changes were good for me as it were part of my growing up process. But to some people who have known me previously before the changes took place, they might not like the new me.

In the past, I always checked up on my friends and made sure they were well and fine. But now, I don't do much of it. Mainly is because I don't want to absorb any unnecessary negative energy. I usually shy away when I sense any negative vibes heading towards me. Last time, I absorbed a lot and even did my best to cheer my friends up by sharing my positive energy/vibes with them, which not only drained me but also made me worried about them. I realised now that I don't want to be their sounding board anymore   as we are all adults hence we should deal with the drama in our life ourselves. I was always very giving until I my caring and giving nature were fully taken advantage of by underserving people, such as Peter Wittendorp and my crazy mum. Both of them used and took advantage of my compassionate nature repetitively and stabbed my in my heart. Seriously, they were a few parallels from both of them on how they used and treated me. Thank god I cut both of them out of my life for good. They couldn't hurt me anymore!

I'm not sure I will be able to fully forgive them for what they did, said and treated me. I don't break down and cry anymore as I had accepted the facts, but occasionally I felt a tinge of sadness when I recounted the stories to friends. Once a blue moon thing though. Recently I was shown a pic of my crazy mum and I didn't even want to look at her face. And I'm definitely not interested to know about her current life!! I don't want dramas and disturbance to be heaped on me again!

I had also looked at the pictures of  Peter Wittendorp just recently and what I saw was a stranger. The face that I used to love, the laughter that made me giddy and happy, the man that I thought was a good man and Mr Right for me was dead on April 18, 2016 when he did the unspeakable to me! I didn't know then, but it was the night that he robbed my happiness, compassion and ability to trust people from me. It took me 1 year to recover, but I will never be able to trust people like I used to anymore. I used to take people words as trustworthy, but not anymore. Words need to be backed up by consistent  actions before I will accord my trust to them.

So now the man in the picture is a pathological liar, a hypocrite, a fakey and an asshole. I feel like a fool for falling for Peter Wittendorp, sucking in all his words and putting up with his shitty treatments and the emotional turmoil he put me through! Seriously, it was really ironic for a pathological liar (2 years) like him to throw accusation at me! What a fucking joke! To be honest, I don't think I will ever be able to stop cursing him for what he did to me. I don't know why, but every time when I wrote his name I feel the urge to cuss him and I will become 😤😤! I think I better stop or else I will make myself upset over an asshole!!

Anyway, overall I'm in a good place emotionally, mentally and physically. The upset feeling I had passed by quickly so it doesn't affect me. Now my full attention are given to my business and getting my financial back in order so that my lifestyle will not be greatly affected by a temporary setback. That sums up my current state of mind and feeling.

Till the next post peeps!

30th Sept last day

My last day at my present company is on 30th September. Yesterday afternoon, my Country Head asked to speak to me and we had about an hour of friendly chat. No hard feelings between us. In fact, she even complimented me a few times. She said I was creative, daring and possess entrepreneur traits that not many people possess. But she also said I lacked of leadership skills. Haha. Her definition of leadership skills and mine are very different so I didn't even bother to correct her thinking. I don't show her all my skills because I don't want her to be able to read me well. In the business world, I need to retain some skills set if I want to succeed in a shark eat shark world 😉! The more she underestimates me, the better it is for me. Haha. I reach a level that I don't need to proof to anyone how good I'm. My results will be the best proof of how good I'm 😂! I won't be able to share openly my plans and strategies as I don't know who will stumble upon my blog and read my business plans. I don't mind sharing about my personal life as I have nothing to hide, but not my business plans! I need to keep my business plans under wrap and a secret until I achieve my goals. Haha.

So for now I have to keep everyone in suspense except for my business partners and a few close friends 😛! Anyway, I think the universe is starting to send me more good news. I have a good feeling and are very positive that I will be able to achieve my goals in the time frame I have set for myself. Can't wait for next week to be over because then I can start focusing on my own plans.

My chapter at the present company will be officially closed. It had been an interesting and fun experienced working with my Country Head who used to be my biggest competitor and now we are on friendly terms. She actually said we are friends and she said she welcome any opportunities for us to work together in the future. Although she can be very demanding and bulldozing, but she is a nice person. We shared many light moments full of laughter. I made a few new acquaintances. So overall it was a pleasant experienced. I might miss the bantering and joking with my colleagues. But then we can always hangout for drinks occasionally so I will still see them, just not on a daily basis.

Anyway, looking forward to starting a new chapter and adventure in my career. I'm ambitious, but I don't like to climb the corporate ladder. I want to create my own little empire. Haha. Wish me best of luck!! 

24.8.16 - 3rd wave in business

The start of a new adventure and chapter in my career. The new company name has been approved. Finally, after a long wait. Things are definitely moving now. The new office space is also confirmed. Name cards and letterhead are in the midst of being design. So looking forward to creating and achieving another milestone in my business venture. This round will be a 3rd wave for me hence the goals I'm chasing is 5x more than the last goal I set and achieved in 2012.

So what's the goal I have set for myself? RM10mil nett income in 2 years! When I told people my goal, their 1st statement was, "wow", then followed by "can I work for you?" or "how are you going to do that", "how much sales do you have to sell?"

Although no one had said to me my goal is crazy or impossible, but I could tell from their questions that they thought I'm talking big and acting crazy. Hahaha. Don't blame them for having such thoughts about me and my goal. To 80% of population, earning RM10mil in 2 years is a gigantic and impossible task and goal to achieve. Even to me, it won't be easy, but it isn't impossible! Definitely it will be very challenging, but I'm going to give it my 200%. It will be the biggest challenge and highest goal I have set for myself to date 😆!

And honestly I'm feeling very excited and charged by this new goal. I have a few plans in mind and a few of my friends told me they will help me to achieve my goal. Haha. They are definitely in a position to help me to reach my goal quickly as they have a lot of good contacts and also they are on the lookout to buy valuable properties. Aside from them, I also have new pool of rich clientele so that will increase my chances of hitting my set goal 😆😆!

Bottomline is I will give it my all!! Wis me luck! Haha. Enjoy the article.

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p.s. The adrenalin rush of chasing big deals and big goals are as good as having great sex. The success in closing a mega deal with a 9 digit value is an aphrodisiac for me 😂😂!

Resigned

On Friday, 19.8.16, I wrote to my Country Head and informed her of my decision to resign. I   will tender my official resignation letter on Monday, 22.8.16. I really don't enjoy working in a rigid corporate structure. And I won't be able to make as much money compare to if I'm working by myself. I have set a giant goal for myself - RM10mil commission in 2 years and I don't have time to waste if I want to achieve this giant goal. Beside, why should I build a new market and pass all my clients database to a company that doesn't provide a good reward system. Also, I don't plan to climb the corporate ladder. Corporate is just too stuffy for me. I feel like I'm in a cage. I'm a bird who can't be caged. I want to fly and soar as high as I can. 

And if I have to create a blue ocean, I should do it to for my own maximum benefits and no one else. I really want to challenge myself and see how far I can go and how much more I can achieve in my career this time around. I don't want to do the regular leasing deals anymore. I want to carve out a niche and I have the whole plan in my head already. 

So is time for me to bid corporate goodbye and free myself from the cage that I put myself in for the last 8-9 months. My Country Head said she will discuss with me next week on when will be my last day and also the outstanding cases and commission payout.

Anyway, looking forward to the new challenges. Have to regain my financial freedom in the shortest time as I have a a few big tickets commitment that I need to take care on a monthly basis. Burning a big hole in my bank account so need to replenish it back asap!

Wish me luck 😄

Jobless soon

Will be jobless soon. My heart isn't in the company anymore. No matter how hard I have tried to fit in, I just couldn't. And I'm not going to force myself to fit in anymore. I'm like a bird.....I don't like to be caged. I like to have the freedom to chase after my goals and dream without having to worry about meeting anyone's expectation. For me, I want to explore a few different directions and create my own blue ocean. I like to branch out and keep modifying my business ideas. Not only I want to build sustainable business, but I want to fulfil a vision and a dream. I don't need to make a lot of money, but I do want to build one of the best boutique company in the industry. And I can't do that where I'm currently. 

I need to leave and go after my own dream and goals again. I don't believe in magic because believing in magic means believing in illusion. I prefer to believe in reality. Anyway, have to wait until my Country Head to return from her holiday to tender my resignation letter. Then probably another 1-2 months before I can leave. Guessing, not sure as she might asks me to leave early. Which I don't mind to be honest. 

Will see......

What Makes a Great CEO?

1. Always do the right thing regardless of sentiment and never compromise your core values. If you cannot build trust and engender confidence with your stakeholders you cannot succeed. No amount of talent can overcome illegal, immoral or otherwise ill-advised actions.

2. Excellent Decision Making Skills/ Decisiveness: As a CEO you will live or die by the quality of the decisions you make. These decisions are like the ship's mast, every bit that you do steers the ship in a certain direction. He/she must also know when to back down and be able to accept it when he realises its a mistake.

3. If you cannot focus you cannot perform at the level necessary to remain in the C-suite for very long. The ability to do nothing more than understand, and lock-onto priorities will place you in the top 10% of all executives.

4. Inexperience, a lack of maturity, needing to be the center of attention, not recognizing limitations, a lack of judgment, an inferior knowledge base, or any number of other common mistakes made by rookie CEOs can cause your house of cards to fall. If you don’t have the experience personally, hire it, contract it, but by all means acquire it. Great CEOs surround themselves with tier-one talent and the best advisors money can buy. They don’t make uniformed or ill-advised decisions in a vacuum.

5. Great CEOs possess a strong presence and bearing. They are unflappable individuals that never let you see them sweat (unless of course it serves a purpose). Everything from how they carry themselves to how they speak and dress messages that they are in charge.

6. Great CEOs have a strong bias to action. They don’t rest upon past accomplishments and are always seeking to improve through change and innovation. In today’s fast paced and competitive environment those CEOs who don’t openly embrace change will often be shown the door prior to the expiration of their initial employment contract.

7. Great CEOs understand branding at every level. They seek to build not only a dominant corporate brand, but also a strong personal brand. CEOs that are not well branded on a personal basis, or who let their corporate brand fall into decline will not survive.

8. Great CEOs have a boundless amount of energy. They are positive in their outlook, and their attitude is contagious. A low energy CEO is not motivating, convincing or credible.

9. Great CEOs have a deep understanding of the business and a strong orientation toward profit. Great CEOs possess what often appears to be a sixth sense or an almost instinctive feel for what the company needs to do to make money and remain competitive.

10. Great CEOs have a nose for talent…They understand how to recruit, develop and deploy talent while focusing on applying the best talent to the best opportunities. They also know when it’s time to make changes and cut losses as needed.

11. Great CEOs know how to engender trust, know when and how to share information, and are expert listeners. They develop strong and positive corporate cultures driven to performance by aligned motivations. They can quickly diagnose whether the organization is performing at full potential, delivering on commitments, and whether the company is changing and growing versus just operating.

12. Great CEOs possess a powerful motivation to increase their knowledge base and to convert their learning into actionable initiatives. They question, challenge, confront and are never accepting of the status quo.

13. Great CEOs are also great thinkers both at the strategic and tactical level. They are quick on their feet and know how to get to the root of an issue faster than anyone else.

14. Regardless of the geographical boundaries of the current business model great CEOs think globally. Limited thinking results in limited results. Whether global thinking is applied to capital formation, supply-chain issues, business development, strategic partnering, distribution, or any number of other areas, those CEOs who don’t grasp the importance of thinking globally will not endure. Great CEOs are externally oriented, hungry for knowledge of the world and adept at connecting developments and spotting patterns.

15. Great CEOs refuse to lose…They have an insatiable appetite for accomplishment and results and while they may reengineer or change direction they will never lose sight of the end game.

16. The decisions and strategy of a CEO will only be as effective if they have the implementation and monitoring skills to execute ideas and follow through. The great CEOs will only recruit managers that has proven themselves time and again in seeing through a project or transmitting a vision into reality effectively.

17. Too many CEOs end up just managing their companies in the same pond. Great CEOs will always be aware of the need to move up to the next level. Always be concerned about your business model and platform of activities, building initiatives or recruiting talent to scale up the business.

18. Too many CEOs are just intent on finding ways to reward themselves. A great CEO will devise ways to reward performers in a big way. Loyalty can only go so far. To build great companies, you need a core team that is well rewarded to see through the long term vision, and be paid well in the process. You cannot build value into the company when talent keeps going out the door - there has to be continuity.

19: You need to have a fair and strong board of directors and not staffed by cronies. You can have a great CEO but he/she will not be effective if the BoD gets in the way. The BoD is there to oversee not micro manage. Just as a great CEO will be able to empower talented employees to achieve greater heights, so too the BoD must empower the CEO to do his/her job.

20. Great CEOs are prepared to create their own luck by cultivating an ability to see opportunities for their company and to make the deals that convert those opportunities into realities. Some things that may seem like amazing foresight are actually the result of the hard work and discipline it takes to constantly look forward to build a successful company. Great CEOs must also constantly develop new products to build and retain a customer base. Foresight is also the ability to hire and retain the right people, looking ahead toward the growth of the company.